Three Months Later

It's been a while, and I'm not sure what sparked the urge to write again, but here it goes.

It's been three months since the last post (give or take a few days) and a lot has happened. I've graduated, I've worked at my job for over a year, I've decided on a college and gotten my course schedule, though my major is still up in the air. I've changed immensely. And quite frankly, I like who I've become. I like the way my future is looking, and I'm ready to start it.

Three months ago, I'd have been terrified to go to college, I'd have been annoyed when asked about it, and I'd have told you I'm majoring in Architecture or Business/Marketing. Oh, how the tables have turned. I couldn't be more excited to go to college, I can't wait to start the next chapter of my life at University of Oregon (GO DUCKS!), and as far as my major goes, I can tell you that Architecture is definitely not where my heart is.
I'm ready for the freedom of college. I'm ready to grow up, to live away from my parents, and to have responsibilities. I'm 18, I'm an adult, and I'm ready to be treated like one. Though, that being said, I still have plenty of mistakes to make before that all happens. But I'm still done being treated like a 15 year old high schooler who is just learning about the twisted society we live in.

Three months ago, I'd have complained about high school, how I'm over it, how I'm sick of the fake people, the lies, and the bullying. Now, it doesn't even cross my mind. I've realized it's not worth my time to worry about it. If people want to be fake, good luck to them, but I'm not wasting my time. If people want to stab me in the back, that's okay. I'll stop putting effort into a friendship that they don't have time for. If people want to hate me and end a friendship for unknown reasons, I'm okay with that, and the friendship obviously wasn't that important to them in the first place. I'm over the high school bullshit, and I'm done wasting time and energy on it. College is a new chapter in my life, and I'm ready to walk into it, open mind and open arms. I'm ready to embrace it, and I'll tell you, September 20th can't come fast enough.

New chapter, new me. Let it begin.

Spring Cleaning

I don't know if it's the awful weather that's been hanging around lately, or the realization that I'm closer and closer to starting college, which basically means a fresh start at life, but I've been seeing a lot of people's true colors lately, and quite frankly, I don't like what I see.

I love my friends. I mean, really, they're great. They're fun, happy, cheerful, and they care about me. At least I thought they did. Rather than describing what a good friend should do, it would be easier, (and more interesting) to explain what a good friend SHOULDN'T do.
1. They shouldn't LIE
2. They shouldn't CHEAT
3. They shouldn't STEAL
4. They shouldn't be SHADY
5. They shouldn't be SO UNBELIEVABLY SELFISH.

The list goes on. Point is, they shouldn't be assholes.

If I tell you a secret, especially if it's important to me and a really big secret, that doesn't mean you tell people. It means you keep it to yourself. It's not difficult, really. But for some people, it clearly is.
If I tell you my plan for something, you don't go behind my back and do it first. That's just messed up. Like seriously, its shady, its stealing, its lying, and its so unbelievably selfish. That's just about everything on the small list of things NOT TO DO. Congratulations, you're a terrible friend.

It might be the fact that I'm beyond ready to get away from Sunset, but I've been "spring cleaning" my friends. I've been picking out the good and the bad, really figuring out who's there for me, and who's just there. Sure, it's been hard, and I've realized a lot of things that I wish I didn't, but overall, it's been good. I know who to focus my energy on, and who to dust off my shoulder like the little devils they are.

All I've got to say is good ridden. Cutting the dead weight that drags me down has never felt better.