It's been a while, and I'm not sure what sparked the urge to write again, but here it goes.
It's been three months since the last post (give or take a few days) and a lot has happened. I've graduated, I've worked at my job for over a year, I've decided on a college and gotten my course schedule, though my major is still up in the air. I've changed immensely. And quite frankly, I like who I've become. I like the way my future is looking, and I'm ready to start it.
Three months ago, I'd have been terrified to go to college, I'd have been annoyed when asked about it, and I'd have told you I'm majoring in Architecture or Business/Marketing. Oh, how the tables have turned. I couldn't be more excited to go to college, I can't wait to start the next chapter of my life at University of Oregon (GO DUCKS!), and as far as my major goes, I can tell you that Architecture is definitely not where my heart is.
I'm ready for the freedom of college. I'm ready to grow up, to live away from my parents, and to have responsibilities. I'm 18, I'm an adult, and I'm ready to be treated like one. Though, that being said, I still have plenty of mistakes to make before that all happens. But I'm still done being treated like a 15 year old high schooler who is just learning about the twisted society we live in.
Three months ago, I'd have complained about high school, how I'm over it, how I'm sick of the fake people, the lies, and the bullying. Now, it doesn't even cross my mind. I've realized it's not worth my time to worry about it. If people want to be fake, good luck to them, but I'm not wasting my time. If people want to stab me in the back, that's okay. I'll stop putting effort into a friendship that they don't have time for. If people want to hate me and end a friendship for unknown reasons, I'm okay with that, and the friendship obviously wasn't that important to them in the first place. I'm over the high school bullshit, and I'm done wasting time and energy on it. College is a new chapter in my life, and I'm ready to walk into it, open mind and open arms. I'm ready to embrace it, and I'll tell you, September 20th can't come fast enough.
New chapter, new me. Let it begin.
Friday, July 27, 2012
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Spring Cleaning
I don't know if it's the awful weather that's been hanging around lately, or the realization that I'm closer and closer to starting college, which basically means a fresh start at life, but I've been seeing a lot of people's true colors lately, and quite frankly, I don't like what I see.
I love my friends. I mean, really, they're great. They're fun, happy, cheerful, and they care about me. At least I thought they did. Rather than describing what a good friend should do, it would be easier, (and more interesting) to explain what a good friend SHOULDN'T do.
1. They shouldn't LIE
2. They shouldn't CHEAT
3. They shouldn't STEAL
4. They shouldn't be SHADY
5. They shouldn't be SO UNBELIEVABLY SELFISH.
The list goes on. Point is, they shouldn't be assholes.
If I tell you a secret, especially if it's important to me and a really big secret, that doesn't mean you tell people. It means you keep it to yourself. It's not difficult, really. But for some people, it clearly is.
If I tell you my plan for something, you don't go behind my back and do it first. That's just messed up. Like seriously, its shady, its stealing, its lying, and its so unbelievably selfish. That's just about everything on the small list of things NOT TO DO. Congratulations, you're a terrible friend.
It might be the fact that I'm beyond ready to get away from Sunset, but I've been "spring cleaning" my friends. I've been picking out the good and the bad, really figuring out who's there for me, and who's just there. Sure, it's been hard, and I've realized a lot of things that I wish I didn't, but overall, it's been good. I know who to focus my energy on, and who to dust off my shoulder like the little devils they are.
All I've got to say is good ridden. Cutting the dead weight that drags me down has never felt better.
I love my friends. I mean, really, they're great. They're fun, happy, cheerful, and they care about me. At least I thought they did. Rather than describing what a good friend should do, it would be easier, (and more interesting) to explain what a good friend SHOULDN'T do.
1. They shouldn't LIE
2. They shouldn't CHEAT
3. They shouldn't STEAL
4. They shouldn't be SHADY
5. They shouldn't be SO UNBELIEVABLY SELFISH.
The list goes on. Point is, they shouldn't be assholes.
If I tell you a secret, especially if it's important to me and a really big secret, that doesn't mean you tell people. It means you keep it to yourself. It's not difficult, really. But for some people, it clearly is.
If I tell you my plan for something, you don't go behind my back and do it first. That's just messed up. Like seriously, its shady, its stealing, its lying, and its so unbelievably selfish. That's just about everything on the small list of things NOT TO DO. Congratulations, you're a terrible friend.
It might be the fact that I'm beyond ready to get away from Sunset, but I've been "spring cleaning" my friends. I've been picking out the good and the bad, really figuring out who's there for me, and who's just there. Sure, it's been hard, and I've realized a lot of things that I wish I didn't, but overall, it's been good. I know who to focus my energy on, and who to dust off my shoulder like the little devils they are.
All I've got to say is good ridden. Cutting the dead weight that drags me down has never felt better.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Let Me Be Free
Winter Break could not come at a better time. Almost everyone at Sunset is getting on my last nerve. It's the holidays, for crying out loud. Shouldn't we all be spreading the cheer rather than the gossip and drama? My word. I'm actually embarrassed. I thought Sunset was better than this.
A few weeks ago, we would pride ourselves on the fact that we all get along with one another, we don't have big drama, and we support one another. There were comments on how talented students at Sunset are, how athletic they can be, how proud we feel to walk the halls with the nicest, most genuine people in the Metro League. Now I'm embarrassed to say I go to Sunset with all this unnecessary drama. I mean, HONESTLY Sunset, get it together.
First off, social networking sites are not a place for drama. Besides, the drama on social networking sites is pathetic. If anyone had a serious problem, it would be a million times more beneficial to work it out in person. Especially since it's not something that everyone wants/needs to be part of.
Second, why are people arguing about some of these things, anyway? I can guarantee you that there will be people in your life that you won't like. There will be people that annoy you, people who do things that bug you, people who offend you with what they say. But what's the point in trying to argue with them on everything? You'll never win all the arguments, and if you do, what does that get you? Fired. That's what. There will be coworkers who irritate you, but you need to learn to deal with it. You can't have everything in life. Pick your battles wisely, and pick the ones that will help you to succeed, rather than the ones that will weaken your opponent.
It feels good to get that off my chest. I'm ready for a break from Sunset. It will be a chance for everyone to cool off and hopefully return as the loving, caring family of Apollos we were in September.
A few weeks ago, we would pride ourselves on the fact that we all get along with one another, we don't have big drama, and we support one another. There were comments on how talented students at Sunset are, how athletic they can be, how proud we feel to walk the halls with the nicest, most genuine people in the Metro League. Now I'm embarrassed to say I go to Sunset with all this unnecessary drama. I mean, HONESTLY Sunset, get it together.
First off, social networking sites are not a place for drama. Besides, the drama on social networking sites is pathetic. If anyone had a serious problem, it would be a million times more beneficial to work it out in person. Especially since it's not something that everyone wants/needs to be part of.
Second, why are people arguing about some of these things, anyway? I can guarantee you that there will be people in your life that you won't like. There will be people that annoy you, people who do things that bug you, people who offend you with what they say. But what's the point in trying to argue with them on everything? You'll never win all the arguments, and if you do, what does that get you? Fired. That's what. There will be coworkers who irritate you, but you need to learn to deal with it. You can't have everything in life. Pick your battles wisely, and pick the ones that will help you to succeed, rather than the ones that will weaken your opponent.
It feels good to get that off my chest. I'm ready for a break from Sunset. It will be a chance for everyone to cool off and hopefully return as the loving, caring family of Apollos we were in September.
Monday, December 5, 2011
Average, yet Above
I wouldn't go as far as to say my life has been extraordinary, but it has definitely been the best 17 years I could have wished for. Sure, I've had some bad times, but I've had some really great times too, and every experience I went through made me the strong individual I am today. I wouldn't change it for all the money in the world.
There have been a lot of experiences that have definitely left an impression on me, but few that have truly changed my life. Though I think it is safe to say that each experience that left an impression did change my life in one way or another, they didn't immediately change the way I looked at things. Very few things have done that.
One thing that changed my life was an episode of One Tree Hill, (which is the best show ever) called "With Tired Eyes, Tired Minds, Tired Souls, We Sleep". It is about teen bullying. I suggest you go watch the episode, now. But if you decided not to, I'll give you the gist. It's about this guy who brings a gun to school and holds seven kids hostage. He talks about how he walks into school and gets bullied, every day, never ending. He brought the gun because he was tired of it, he just wanted it to stop. Unfortunately, the bullying got to him, and he committed suicide.
It is quite possibly the most inspiring and quotable TV episode I have ever seen, and every time I watch it, it makes me cry. Not only because it's sad, but because it happens all around the world. The episode was made in 2003. Kids brought guns to school then, they bring guns to school now, and they brought guns to school long before 2003. Unfortunately, it's a cycle that never seems to end. Things like this happen because kids are bullied. And who bullies them? The ones in the school that hold the power. The ones that want to be popular. The ones who pretend to be brave, strong, and powerful, yet inside are weak, pathetic, and lonely.
School shootings happen way more often that we think, and what is so heart breaking about it is that nothing is being done. It is a problem with a very simple solution: stop bullying. But that seems to be harder than expected. Bullying happens every day, and even with anti-bullying week in schools, it doesn't change the fact that it happens. Sadly, bullying seems to have become second nature. When we feel threatened, we bully someone weaker to boost our self esteem and make us feel better. But why? What good does that do? You bully someone, who, in turn, bullies someone else in order to feel better. The cycle goes on.
Maybe we can't avoid being bullied, but if we avoid retaliation, bullying can end. It's simple, really. Bullies are only powerful if you let their words and actions hurt. Nothing destroys them faster than ignoring them. It may be difficult, but it works. All a bully wants is a reaction out of you. If you ignore them, and continue to ignore them, they'll give up. Don't stoop to their level. You're better than that. Brush it off your shoulder, keep your head up, and move on. There will be people in life who will constantly try to bring you down, but the most important thing is to show them that you're stronger than you look.
I can't wait to get out of high school. All the bullying seems to happen here, because people are sheltered. It doesn't happen in college because the bullies get a big slap in the face from reality. Don't be that person who gets slapped by reality. It's unfortunate to see.
There have been a lot of experiences that have definitely left an impression on me, but few that have truly changed my life. Though I think it is safe to say that each experience that left an impression did change my life in one way or another, they didn't immediately change the way I looked at things. Very few things have done that.
One thing that changed my life was an episode of One Tree Hill, (which is the best show ever) called "With Tired Eyes, Tired Minds, Tired Souls, We Sleep". It is about teen bullying. I suggest you go watch the episode, now. But if you decided not to, I'll give you the gist. It's about this guy who brings a gun to school and holds seven kids hostage. He talks about how he walks into school and gets bullied, every day, never ending. He brought the gun because he was tired of it, he just wanted it to stop. Unfortunately, the bullying got to him, and he committed suicide.
"You really think I'm the only one? Ask yourself this: Have you ever treated someone like crap in this school? Ever left someone out? Ever broken up with someone in the time it takes to pass a note and disappear? Or talk trash behind their back? Maybe you just ignored it all. While you worry about the big game, or the prom, or the bake sale for the pep club, you ask yourself that, and then you tell me, is anyone else out there"
"Whats wrong with you? He's just a kid. We're all just kids. We have this life, and the things you say and do, we feel that. How can you have so much hate in your heart? How can you act like it doesn't matter? It does matter. What happened to us? We're just kids, we can't be like this. It's not possible.
"So what? All this because you didn't get into college? All this because you're not popular?" "No. All this because I'm tired of it."
"I guess that's the upside to not being there in the first place, right? Nobody misses you when you're gone" "It's not supposed to be this way. The artists and scientists, none of them fit in at 17. You're supposed to get past it. Adults see kids killing kids and they know its a tragedy because they used to be those kids. The bullies and the beaten and the loners. But you're supposed to get past it. You're supposed to live long enough to take it back."
"I want to tell you something. It gets better. It does. That pain in your stomach, that pain in your heart, it goes away. That voice in your head that says there's no way out, its wrong. Please, believe me, it gets better."
It is quite possibly the most inspiring and quotable TV episode I have ever seen, and every time I watch it, it makes me cry. Not only because it's sad, but because it happens all around the world. The episode was made in 2003. Kids brought guns to school then, they bring guns to school now, and they brought guns to school long before 2003. Unfortunately, it's a cycle that never seems to end. Things like this happen because kids are bullied. And who bullies them? The ones in the school that hold the power. The ones that want to be popular. The ones who pretend to be brave, strong, and powerful, yet inside are weak, pathetic, and lonely.
School shootings happen way more often that we think, and what is so heart breaking about it is that nothing is being done. It is a problem with a very simple solution: stop bullying. But that seems to be harder than expected. Bullying happens every day, and even with anti-bullying week in schools, it doesn't change the fact that it happens. Sadly, bullying seems to have become second nature. When we feel threatened, we bully someone weaker to boost our self esteem and make us feel better. But why? What good does that do? You bully someone, who, in turn, bullies someone else in order to feel better. The cycle goes on.
Maybe we can't avoid being bullied, but if we avoid retaliation, bullying can end. It's simple, really. Bullies are only powerful if you let their words and actions hurt. Nothing destroys them faster than ignoring them. It may be difficult, but it works. All a bully wants is a reaction out of you. If you ignore them, and continue to ignore them, they'll give up. Don't stoop to their level. You're better than that. Brush it off your shoulder, keep your head up, and move on. There will be people in life who will constantly try to bring you down, but the most important thing is to show them that you're stronger than you look.
I can't wait to get out of high school. All the bullying seems to happen here, because people are sheltered. It doesn't happen in college because the bullies get a big slap in the face from reality. Don't be that person who gets slapped by reality. It's unfortunate to see.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Why?
Apparently, everyone at Sunset forgot that last week was "Random Acts of Kindness" week, and just one month ago was "Anti-Bully Week". Just because the week has passed doesn't mean its okay to bully again, or be rude again. What is wrong with high school these days? A lot. That's for sure.
I'm not sure what's worse; the fact that someone made a "Gossip Girl" twitter account, or the fact that 85 people follow it, and it's only been up for one hour. Following them is exactly what they want. Tweeting at them saying how pathetic they are is exactly what they want. Its adding fuel to the fire. The things posted clearly aren't true, but the fact that people read them and talk about them makes them true to some people. The entire thing is just pathetic. It's weak, and the person who did it should be ashamed. I feel bad for whoever it was; they need a serious self esteem boost, not to mention a big old slap in the face by karma. Who's the bitch now?
A couple days ago there was a Facebook "Sunset Slut" Page. Really, I mean REALLY? First off, that's not even original, second, its incredibly rude. I don't think people understand that words can hurt. We all know the saying "sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me" but in high school, they do hurt. More than we should let them, but we're insecure and we worry too much about what other people think. Making accounts that bash on other people is one way that causes teen suicide. It's why there are school shootings and why kids bring guns and knives to school.
Does that make you feel safe? Does knowing that by creating this account to bash on the "populars" or the "sluts" or the "douche bags" makes the risk of a school shooting that much bigger? Does that make you want to go to school? I don't know about you, but it makes me scared. I don't want a school shooting. I don't want someone from my school to commit suicide because of this. I don't want anything bad to happen to my school, because, believe it or not, I like it. I like everyone that goes there. I may be annoyed with people at times, but I'm old enough and mature enough to know when to let it go. It doesn't do anyone any good to bash on other people, and if you never learn that lesson, I feel really sorry for you.
To whoever made those accounts, I can't begin to explain how sorry I feel for you. There's no need to create negative attention to get noticed. Maybe being noticed isn't all it's cracked up to be. There are more important things in life than being noticed in high school. What people remember most about you is what they learn about you in high school. Before you do anything too stupid, why not think, "Do I want to be remembered like this?"
Think twice before you do something, especially something on social networking sites. Karma's a bitch and always has a way of coming back.
I'm not sure what's worse; the fact that someone made a "Gossip Girl" twitter account, or the fact that 85 people follow it, and it's only been up for one hour. Following them is exactly what they want. Tweeting at them saying how pathetic they are is exactly what they want. Its adding fuel to the fire. The things posted clearly aren't true, but the fact that people read them and talk about them makes them true to some people. The entire thing is just pathetic. It's weak, and the person who did it should be ashamed. I feel bad for whoever it was; they need a serious self esteem boost, not to mention a big old slap in the face by karma. Who's the bitch now?
A couple days ago there was a Facebook "Sunset Slut" Page. Really, I mean REALLY? First off, that's not even original, second, its incredibly rude. I don't think people understand that words can hurt. We all know the saying "sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me" but in high school, they do hurt. More than we should let them, but we're insecure and we worry too much about what other people think. Making accounts that bash on other people is one way that causes teen suicide. It's why there are school shootings and why kids bring guns and knives to school.
Does that make you feel safe? Does knowing that by creating this account to bash on the "populars" or the "sluts" or the "douche bags" makes the risk of a school shooting that much bigger? Does that make you want to go to school? I don't know about you, but it makes me scared. I don't want a school shooting. I don't want someone from my school to commit suicide because of this. I don't want anything bad to happen to my school, because, believe it or not, I like it. I like everyone that goes there. I may be annoyed with people at times, but I'm old enough and mature enough to know when to let it go. It doesn't do anyone any good to bash on other people, and if you never learn that lesson, I feel really sorry for you.
To whoever made those accounts, I can't begin to explain how sorry I feel for you. There's no need to create negative attention to get noticed. Maybe being noticed isn't all it's cracked up to be. There are more important things in life than being noticed in high school. What people remember most about you is what they learn about you in high school. Before you do anything too stupid, why not think, "Do I want to be remembered like this?"
Think twice before you do something, especially something on social networking sites. Karma's a bitch and always has a way of coming back.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Hope for the Hopeless
I'm a girl. That means I'm a hopeless romantic, like all girls at one point in their lives. Every girl dreams of the fairytale wedding, the Nicholas Sparks romance, and the happily ever after fireworks. It's romantic, heartwarming, and entirely Hollywood. Yet we still believe, hope, and pray that we are the exception to this heart crushing reality. It's depressing, really. When I think about it, reading Nicholas Sparks books or watching romantic movies just puts me in a downer mood. It's cute and makes me smile, don't get me wrong, but it just makes me sad. It makes me jealous more than anything, which is silly because the entire idea is fake. Someone, somewhere, came up with this perfect idea, this dream, and wrote a script or a novel about it for others to enjoy. I don't enjoy it; I envy it.
Its stupid that I put so much thought into perfection. It can never be reached. Ever. Which makes the world we live in beautiful. Everyone has their flaws, their troubles, their frustration. It makes us human. Yet too many people strive to be perfect, altering their natural self with plastic surgery, pounds of make up, or designer clothes. What people don't seem to understand is that behind all that, there is still a perfectly imperfect human, waiting to be let free.
I've come to the realization that it is completely pointless to strive for perfection. I've already known its impossible, but now I realize it's just a waste of time. I'd rather rock my flaws then hide them. At least I'm being honest with the world about who I am and there are no secrets. Secrets can be really ugly, especially ones that have been kept hidden for a while. Which is why the truth should just be told.
I can't help that I fall for the fairy tale romance, the movie dreams, and the forever and always love. I'd be lying if I said I'd never dreamed my life was a movie. There are those moments in life where you just wish your dreams would come true and something romantic would happen, whether it be the guy of your dreams traveling hundreds of miles to find you and tell you how much he loves you, or simply going on a perfect date like one that only happens in movies. We all wish we had spontaneous romance in our lives, but unfortunately, that's not always the case.
If you are lucky enough to have a relationship like that, cherish it. Everyone wants one, but you are lucky enough to find one right now. And for the rest of us who have yet to find this perfection, have patients. It hasn't happened because it hasn't been the right time.
Timing is everything, and if something is meant to be, it will happen in good time.
Its stupid that I put so much thought into perfection. It can never be reached. Ever. Which makes the world we live in beautiful. Everyone has their flaws, their troubles, their frustration. It makes us human. Yet too many people strive to be perfect, altering their natural self with plastic surgery, pounds of make up, or designer clothes. What people don't seem to understand is that behind all that, there is still a perfectly imperfect human, waiting to be let free.
I've come to the realization that it is completely pointless to strive for perfection. I've already known its impossible, but now I realize it's just a waste of time. I'd rather rock my flaws then hide them. At least I'm being honest with the world about who I am and there are no secrets. Secrets can be really ugly, especially ones that have been kept hidden for a while. Which is why the truth should just be told.
I can't help that I fall for the fairy tale romance, the movie dreams, and the forever and always love. I'd be lying if I said I'd never dreamed my life was a movie. There are those moments in life where you just wish your dreams would come true and something romantic would happen, whether it be the guy of your dreams traveling hundreds of miles to find you and tell you how much he loves you, or simply going on a perfect date like one that only happens in movies. We all wish we had spontaneous romance in our lives, but unfortunately, that's not always the case.
If you are lucky enough to have a relationship like that, cherish it. Everyone wants one, but you are lucky enough to find one right now. And for the rest of us who have yet to find this perfection, have patients. It hasn't happened because it hasn't been the right time.
Timing is everything, and if something is meant to be, it will happen in good time.
Hot and Cold
I don't know if it's a severe case of senioritis or what, but lately, I've been really on edge when it comes to colleges. If someone tries to talk to me about it, I get incredibly irritated and snappy. I don't know why and I can't help it. I assume its because I feel so much pressure when it comes to choosing. A lot of people have had their lives planned out since freshman year. They know where they are going, what to study, who they will be rooming with. That's the thing that stresses me out. I had a plan, but it's nothing like what I'm thinking now. I don't know for a fact where I'm going, I've dipped my toes into countless programs to find my true calling, and I think I've yet to find one I really love. I don't think I'll know until I get to the school of my dreams. Which may be never, considering I'm facing the toughest decision of my life.
It's silly, really, to be so stressed about what college to go to. It's not like I'm signing away the next four years of my life; I can always transfer. I guess I just don't want more than one freshman year. Freshman year of high school was rough enough, now I have to have a second freshman year, this time for college. Two is more than enough, but if it comes down to it, I'd much rather be happy at the school I go to, even if it means moving around, than to be miserable for four years.
Even writing about this is making me irritated. I've just been that way lately.
Even some people are irritating me. The way they are acting just doesn't make any sense. Friends are supposed to support one another, right? But I've been seeing the complete opposite from some of my friends. I'm not trying to be hypocritical, I know I was doing the same, but seeing it from an outside perspective made me realize it's not okay. I believe in the fact that at some point, you're opinions only go so far, and your friends have to make the ultimate decision for themselves, whether it's one you approve of or not. It's a lesson for them, it's their life, let them live it. Besides, it may turn out completely opposite of what you expected. Friends are a support system, the opinions of them are always valued, but they aren't the ones who get to decide how to live your life for you. I understand if the intentions are purely to protect you, but at some point, as hard as it may be to do, friends just have to let go, and let mistakes be made. They exist for a reason; to make you stronger.
So for those of you who are facing difficulties in life, I guess all I have to say is do what your heart tells you. You only live once, so make it worth it. Take every chance that comes your way, you may never know what you'll end up regretting. That is one lesson I've quickly learned this year.
It's silly, really, to be so stressed about what college to go to. It's not like I'm signing away the next four years of my life; I can always transfer. I guess I just don't want more than one freshman year. Freshman year of high school was rough enough, now I have to have a second freshman year, this time for college. Two is more than enough, but if it comes down to it, I'd much rather be happy at the school I go to, even if it means moving around, than to be miserable for four years.
Even writing about this is making me irritated. I've just been that way lately.
Even some people are irritating me. The way they are acting just doesn't make any sense. Friends are supposed to support one another, right? But I've been seeing the complete opposite from some of my friends. I'm not trying to be hypocritical, I know I was doing the same, but seeing it from an outside perspective made me realize it's not okay. I believe in the fact that at some point, you're opinions only go so far, and your friends have to make the ultimate decision for themselves, whether it's one you approve of or not. It's a lesson for them, it's their life, let them live it. Besides, it may turn out completely opposite of what you expected. Friends are a support system, the opinions of them are always valued, but they aren't the ones who get to decide how to live your life for you. I understand if the intentions are purely to protect you, but at some point, as hard as it may be to do, friends just have to let go, and let mistakes be made. They exist for a reason; to make you stronger.
So for those of you who are facing difficulties in life, I guess all I have to say is do what your heart tells you. You only live once, so make it worth it. Take every chance that comes your way, you may never know what you'll end up regretting. That is one lesson I've quickly learned this year.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Religion?
Now I don't mean to offend anyone with this, and I'm certainly not trying to attack anyone's beliefs or views. These are simply my thoughts. If you take offense easily, I would suggest you stop reading. I won't take offense, really. I don't care if you stop. And if you continue, I warned you. So don't complain about it.
Moving on...
A lot of people went to Breakaway this weekend. Scratch that, almost everybody who's anybody went. I didn't, for multiple reasons. One being that I was out of town, but another being I'm not entirely sure I would have wanted to go. I'm not too familiar with what Breakaway is exactly, but I know it is some sort of religious camp put together by Young Life where other high school students gather at the beach for a weekend? Don't quote me on that, but that's my general understanding. Personally, I think it's great that so many people want to get together and discuss their common interests and beliefs in God and religion. It just doesn't seem like its for me. I don't know, I'm not really a religious person, so to speak.
I don't consider myself to be a specific religion, I don't go to church every Sunday, and in fact, the only time I've ever been to church is on Christmas Day in New Zealand a year ago. And I felt uncomfortable. I'm not sure if it was because I'd never been before, or if it was because it was Christmas Day, a very religious day to some, or if it was because I felt as if I was being forced to believe something I was completely unsure about. I'm not sure I'll ever fully understand. All I know is that I felt vulnerable and uncomfortable sitting in that church on Christmas Day.
I don't know what I believe, and to be completely honest, I've never really thought about it. I guess it just didn't seem all that important to me. I'm not an atheist, I'm just not sure what to believe in. I think there is definitely some form of something out there, but I'm not sure I'd put myself under the umbrella of a religion. I'd prefer to be my own sort of religion and believe exactly what I want to believe, rather than put myself into a group of people telling me what I should believe.
I guess the reason I've thought about this lately is I feel as if I've been forced to believe certain things. There has been so much going on around me that seems so religion-based and it is really making me think about things. There are clubs, Young Life, and even people who are always talking about God and religion and I feel as if I'm being brainwashed. Not that it is necessarily a bad thing, I mean some people love their religion and their faith in God, which is great. I just feel like it's not really for me, and I would much rather discover it on my own rather than feel as if it's being forced upon me.
I believe what I choose to believe, but I respect everyone else's beliefs. We are individuals, and our personalities represent who we are. Don't let anyone take that from you, and don't let others persuade you into something you're unsure of.
Moving on...
A lot of people went to Breakaway this weekend. Scratch that, almost everybody who's anybody went. I didn't, for multiple reasons. One being that I was out of town, but another being I'm not entirely sure I would have wanted to go. I'm not too familiar with what Breakaway is exactly, but I know it is some sort of religious camp put together by Young Life where other high school students gather at the beach for a weekend? Don't quote me on that, but that's my general understanding. Personally, I think it's great that so many people want to get together and discuss their common interests and beliefs in God and religion. It just doesn't seem like its for me. I don't know, I'm not really a religious person, so to speak.
I don't consider myself to be a specific religion, I don't go to church every Sunday, and in fact, the only time I've ever been to church is on Christmas Day in New Zealand a year ago. And I felt uncomfortable. I'm not sure if it was because I'd never been before, or if it was because it was Christmas Day, a very religious day to some, or if it was because I felt as if I was being forced to believe something I was completely unsure about. I'm not sure I'll ever fully understand. All I know is that I felt vulnerable and uncomfortable sitting in that church on Christmas Day.
I don't know what I believe, and to be completely honest, I've never really thought about it. I guess it just didn't seem all that important to me. I'm not an atheist, I'm just not sure what to believe in. I think there is definitely some form of something out there, but I'm not sure I'd put myself under the umbrella of a religion. I'd prefer to be my own sort of religion and believe exactly what I want to believe, rather than put myself into a group of people telling me what I should believe.
I guess the reason I've thought about this lately is I feel as if I've been forced to believe certain things. There has been so much going on around me that seems so religion-based and it is really making me think about things. There are clubs, Young Life, and even people who are always talking about God and religion and I feel as if I'm being brainwashed. Not that it is necessarily a bad thing, I mean some people love their religion and their faith in God, which is great. I just feel like it's not really for me, and I would much rather discover it on my own rather than feel as if it's being forced upon me.
I believe what I choose to believe, but I respect everyone else's beliefs. We are individuals, and our personalities represent who we are. Don't let anyone take that from you, and don't let others persuade you into something you're unsure of.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Greedy Americans
Normally, I don't blog like this, but I'm just so heated and I need to vent.
I was just talking with someone about the NBA lockout and how ridiculous it is. Why can't they come to an agreement? I get that the players don't really want a 40% pay cut, but when their salary is in the MILLIONS, I think they will be able to survive. They should have been saving some of their money in the first place. But at the same time, it's the owners faults for being in this predicament in the first place. It's the owners who agreed to the current terms back in 1999 when the last lockout was going on. The owners dug themselves into this ditch, it's not fair for them to demand an easy way out.
In all honesty, I just want to march into the negotiations and scream at everyone. Why can't these two sides come to an agreement? Because they are greedy and narrow minded. Don't get me wrong, I love my basketball, and I miss watching it and going to Blazer games, but really, the players and owners need to open their eyes and see each others point of view.
If that was the way more people were, the world would be a much more peaceful place. We wouldn't have the NBA lockout issue, there would never have been an NFL lockout issue, this whole "Occupy" trend wouldn't be such a big deal. Americans are so narrow minded. (Mind you, when I say Americans, I'm talking about the general, stereotypical American. Not everyone is this way.) They refuse to see the other point of view. Who knows, the other side might have some good ideas that could be used to form a compromise.
That word, compromise, is one that doesn't seem to be in the American dictionary. It seems that no one knows how to compromise. Things can't always be perfect, you can't always get what you want, and everything comes at a price. Life is a give and take sort of thing. Why can't people understand that.
I think everything needs to be redone. Wipe the slate clean, start over. But that is clearly not going to happen. These are Americans were talking about.
I guess my point to this venting ramble is that we need to find the true meaning to a compromise. Life is full of them, and we need to learn that nothing is perfect, and there is a price to pay for everything.
Also, we need to bring back the NBA. I'm having withdrawals.
I was just talking with someone about the NBA lockout and how ridiculous it is. Why can't they come to an agreement? I get that the players don't really want a 40% pay cut, but when their salary is in the MILLIONS, I think they will be able to survive. They should have been saving some of their money in the first place. But at the same time, it's the owners faults for being in this predicament in the first place. It's the owners who agreed to the current terms back in 1999 when the last lockout was going on. The owners dug themselves into this ditch, it's not fair for them to demand an easy way out.
In all honesty, I just want to march into the negotiations and scream at everyone. Why can't these two sides come to an agreement? Because they are greedy and narrow minded. Don't get me wrong, I love my basketball, and I miss watching it and going to Blazer games, but really, the players and owners need to open their eyes and see each others point of view.
If that was the way more people were, the world would be a much more peaceful place. We wouldn't have the NBA lockout issue, there would never have been an NFL lockout issue, this whole "Occupy" trend wouldn't be such a big deal. Americans are so narrow minded. (Mind you, when I say Americans, I'm talking about the general, stereotypical American. Not everyone is this way.) They refuse to see the other point of view. Who knows, the other side might have some good ideas that could be used to form a compromise.
That word, compromise, is one that doesn't seem to be in the American dictionary. It seems that no one knows how to compromise. Things can't always be perfect, you can't always get what you want, and everything comes at a price. Life is a give and take sort of thing. Why can't people understand that.
I think everything needs to be redone. Wipe the slate clean, start over. But that is clearly not going to happen. These are Americans were talking about.
I guess my point to this venting ramble is that we need to find the true meaning to a compromise. Life is full of them, and we need to learn that nothing is perfect, and there is a price to pay for everything.
Also, we need to bring back the NBA. I'm having withdrawals.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
The Deep End
The deep end of high school is still pretty shallow. The halls are filled with shallow people, people who care too much about other's opinions, other's thoughts, the way they are judged. They focus on what they want others to see, rather than who they really are. They hang out with certain people just for the popularity points. They want to look good, at all times. They aim to be perfect. I just don't get it.
The hashtag on twitter #10ThingsIFindAttractive is what sparked this post. While scrolling through, the majority of them were about looks. People find perfect teeth attractive, a "hot body", a nice ass, big boobs, a perfect smile. Very rarely did I come across one that had something to do with personality. Which proves my point.
I can't even count the number of times I've heard people say such shallow things. Mean Girls was right in depicting high school. It may be a bit extreme at times, but for the most part, it's pretty accurate. Maybe take Mean Girls and tone it down to 35% and you've reached Sunset High School. Make a few changes here and there, and boom. Sunset and Mean Girls are the same thing. It is actually terrifying to think about, knowing how messed up the society in Mean Girls is. It is happening in our high school, as well as others all around the country. Possibly even around the world. High school is a shallow place, and I'm always afraid for those who hit rock bottom. They say nothing is worse than hitting it, but the trip down is a hard one to watch.
As much as I hate shallow people, and the way they act, and the things they say, sometime, I can't help but to wonder. I want to know what people think when they see me. I want to know how I'm being judged. I won't take it offensively; I'm not going to change because of it. I am the way that I am, and I'm happy with that. I'm just curious as to what other's think when they see me. What clique would I be put into if it were exactly like Mean Girls? Where would I sit at lunch? Would I have been invited to Cady's party? Would you?
I like the way that I am, I like the people I surround myself with. I know they are real, I know they are honest, and I appreciate it. I fear for those who constantly judge others, and those who try to be someone they aren't. Who are you fooling? Some day, your true colors will show. Why not show them sooner, rather than later?
Always be cautious of the depths of high school. It's not as deep as you think.
The hashtag on twitter #10ThingsIFindAttractive is what sparked this post. While scrolling through, the majority of them were about looks. People find perfect teeth attractive, a "hot body", a nice ass, big boobs, a perfect smile. Very rarely did I come across one that had something to do with personality. Which proves my point.
I can't even count the number of times I've heard people say such shallow things. Mean Girls was right in depicting high school. It may be a bit extreme at times, but for the most part, it's pretty accurate. Maybe take Mean Girls and tone it down to 35% and you've reached Sunset High School. Make a few changes here and there, and boom. Sunset and Mean Girls are the same thing. It is actually terrifying to think about, knowing how messed up the society in Mean Girls is. It is happening in our high school, as well as others all around the country. Possibly even around the world. High school is a shallow place, and I'm always afraid for those who hit rock bottom. They say nothing is worse than hitting it, but the trip down is a hard one to watch.
As much as I hate shallow people, and the way they act, and the things they say, sometime, I can't help but to wonder. I want to know what people think when they see me. I want to know how I'm being judged. I won't take it offensively; I'm not going to change because of it. I am the way that I am, and I'm happy with that. I'm just curious as to what other's think when they see me. What clique would I be put into if it were exactly like Mean Girls? Where would I sit at lunch? Would I have been invited to Cady's party? Would you?
I like the way that I am, I like the people I surround myself with. I know they are real, I know they are honest, and I appreciate it. I fear for those who constantly judge others, and those who try to be someone they aren't. Who are you fooling? Some day, your true colors will show. Why not show them sooner, rather than later?
Always be cautious of the depths of high school. It's not as deep as you think.
For Me, Shared With You
Today, I was interviewed for the school newspaper about blogs. Some of the questions were why I blogged, what I blogged about, what I got out of blogging. Basic questions. Simple questions. But for some reason, I had a hard time explaining it. To be quite honest, I don't really know why I blog. But here is an entire post, just for the sake of it, to help me think through it. Which I guess is sort of why I do it...
I blog about experiences in my life, things that have happened to me, things that have made an impact. Whether the impact be minor or major, positive or negative, I blog about it. I suppose it's a way of me letting my feelings out, but in a way that is helpful to others who read it. It's like a diary, but public. The things I say here are mainly for me, but I'm giving others the privilege to read them. I find that I always come to some sort of moral at the end, which some could argue is for the reader. I like to think that the entire post is directed for me, the writer, rather than you, the reader.
I come to these morals and conclusions through writing about it. It helps me find the message within the experience, helps me to understand why exactly it happened to me. Some would call it fate, and just leave it at that, but I'm not one to put all my eggs in one basket. I'm not saying I don't believe in fate, I'm just saying that I think there is a reason for everything, and I would like to come to my own conclusions as to why it happened, rather than just letting it be.
Another question I was asked was if I gave out personal information on here. Of course not, that would be plain silly. I know not to do that, I know that what is put on the internet is public, and there forever.
For those of you who saw the first edition of my blog, you know that I am a very brutally honest person. For those of you who don't know the story, it's just as well.
Within my blog, I never mention any names or hint at specific people. I never aim to hurt anyone's feelings or create something that seems like a "burn book" of sorts. It is for me, and a way to let me feelings out. I state the facts and my opinions on them. I may come of harsh at times, but I like to keep it honest.
I suppose my honesty is coming back around because frankly, I don't care if you read this or not. I don't care if you take offense to it or not. If you don't like what you read, don't keep reading. I'm not forcing anyone to do anything they don't want to do. Everything is a choice. I choose to blog, though I'm not entirely sure why. You choose to read it, though, once again, I'm not entirely sure why, nor do I really care.
Point is, I blog for me, and share it with you, so hopefully, you can learn the wonderful lessons life has given me up to this point.
I blog about experiences in my life, things that have happened to me, things that have made an impact. Whether the impact be minor or major, positive or negative, I blog about it. I suppose it's a way of me letting my feelings out, but in a way that is helpful to others who read it. It's like a diary, but public. The things I say here are mainly for me, but I'm giving others the privilege to read them. I find that I always come to some sort of moral at the end, which some could argue is for the reader. I like to think that the entire post is directed for me, the writer, rather than you, the reader.
I come to these morals and conclusions through writing about it. It helps me find the message within the experience, helps me to understand why exactly it happened to me. Some would call it fate, and just leave it at that, but I'm not one to put all my eggs in one basket. I'm not saying I don't believe in fate, I'm just saying that I think there is a reason for everything, and I would like to come to my own conclusions as to why it happened, rather than just letting it be.
Another question I was asked was if I gave out personal information on here. Of course not, that would be plain silly. I know not to do that, I know that what is put on the internet is public, and there forever.
For those of you who saw the first edition of my blog, you know that I am a very brutally honest person. For those of you who don't know the story, it's just as well.
Within my blog, I never mention any names or hint at specific people. I never aim to hurt anyone's feelings or create something that seems like a "burn book" of sorts. It is for me, and a way to let me feelings out. I state the facts and my opinions on them. I may come of harsh at times, but I like to keep it honest.
I suppose my honesty is coming back around because frankly, I don't care if you read this or not. I don't care if you take offense to it or not. If you don't like what you read, don't keep reading. I'm not forcing anyone to do anything they don't want to do. Everything is a choice. I choose to blog, though I'm not entirely sure why. You choose to read it, though, once again, I'm not entirely sure why, nor do I really care.
Point is, I blog for me, and share it with you, so hopefully, you can learn the wonderful lessons life has given me up to this point.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Impossible is Nothing
Today at work, someone asked me if I'd ever come up with a crazy idea that I would want to do. I said of course, like any kid would, but it's a crazy idea and it would never work. The response I got actually blew my mind. "Maybe it would work, you just haven't found the person to make it work" That got me thinking that if that is the case, which I'm starting to believe it is, then anything is possible.
If I wanted to build the most outrageous house in the history of the world, I could. I'd just have to draw up the plans and find that one person who is willing to make the impossible, possible. There are ways to do anything, and in a world like ours, there are so many chances and so many opportunities to do anything. American's may be limited in some things, but choices are not one them. I get to choose my classes in high school, my college, my degree, where I live, what I do, who I marry, what I wear. Everything in my life is a choice that I get to make.
Impossible is a fictional word. It is a word for the weak, and the simple minded. It is a word for those who don't believe in themselves, or others. It is a word that is not in my dictionary, and it never will be.
I can do anything I want if I set my mind to it and I work hard enough. The world is a creation, it didn't get to be the way it is with people thinking things were impossible. Guess what people said when the idea of space travel was brought up? "That's impossible" But look at how far space travel has come, even in the past 10 years. It is far from impossible.
I believe that God (or whoever the creator is, whatever you choose to believe) put certain things on this earth as temptations in order to spark creativity. There is a purpose for everything in the world, and the reason it came to be was because the word "impossible" was never in any dictionary.
"Anything is possible if you just believe" -A Cinderella Story
If I wanted to build the most outrageous house in the history of the world, I could. I'd just have to draw up the plans and find that one person who is willing to make the impossible, possible. There are ways to do anything, and in a world like ours, there are so many chances and so many opportunities to do anything. American's may be limited in some things, but choices are not one them. I get to choose my classes in high school, my college, my degree, where I live, what I do, who I marry, what I wear. Everything in my life is a choice that I get to make.
Impossible is a fictional word. It is a word for the weak, and the simple minded. It is a word for those who don't believe in themselves, or others. It is a word that is not in my dictionary, and it never will be.
I can do anything I want if I set my mind to it and I work hard enough. The world is a creation, it didn't get to be the way it is with people thinking things were impossible. Guess what people said when the idea of space travel was brought up? "That's impossible" But look at how far space travel has come, even in the past 10 years. It is far from impossible.
I believe that God (or whoever the creator is, whatever you choose to believe) put certain things on this earth as temptations in order to spark creativity. There is a purpose for everything in the world, and the reason it came to be was because the word "impossible" was never in any dictionary.
"Anything is possible if you just believe" -A Cinderella Story
Friday, October 28, 2011
Here For You
Lets be honest now, there are a lot of things that really get me irritated. I won't even begin to list them all. But nothing gets me more annoyed than when friends don't listen to the advice I give them, after asking for it.
It's one thing to not take advice when you don't want to hear it. I completely understand that. I don't always take people's advice. No one wants to hear the truth when it isn't what they want to believe. That I can completely understand. It's when someone asks for my advice or opinion, then completely ignores it.
When I give my friends my opinion on a serious matter, I say it with complete honesty, because I care about them. I never want to see my friends hurt, therefore I tell them what is on my mind. If you ask for my advice, please, at least consider it. If you don't want it, don't bother asking for it. If you know what I'm going to say because it's not the first time you've heard it, don't bother asking for it. It annoys me.
I love when my friends come to me for help because I love to help them. I care about them and I want them to be happy. When anyone (friend or not) has an issue, I'm always willing to listen and to help out. But only if they want the help. I've spent too much time trying to help people that don't want the help. It has gotten me nothing but frustration. So I'm done.
It's a bit negative tonight, but I'm just fed up. I don't want to go into too much detail because I don't want to subblog. This is happening with multiple people, and I can't handle it. The best I can do is be there for my friends, with advice to give when asked for.
Advice should always be honest. Before asking, make sure you're ready to hear it. I don't sugar coat things anymore.
It's one thing to not take advice when you don't want to hear it. I completely understand that. I don't always take people's advice. No one wants to hear the truth when it isn't what they want to believe. That I can completely understand. It's when someone asks for my advice or opinion, then completely ignores it.
When I give my friends my opinion on a serious matter, I say it with complete honesty, because I care about them. I never want to see my friends hurt, therefore I tell them what is on my mind. If you ask for my advice, please, at least consider it. If you don't want it, don't bother asking for it. If you know what I'm going to say because it's not the first time you've heard it, don't bother asking for it. It annoys me.
I love when my friends come to me for help because I love to help them. I care about them and I want them to be happy. When anyone (friend or not) has an issue, I'm always willing to listen and to help out. But only if they want the help. I've spent too much time trying to help people that don't want the help. It has gotten me nothing but frustration. So I'm done.
It's a bit negative tonight, but I'm just fed up. I don't want to go into too much detail because I don't want to subblog. This is happening with multiple people, and I can't handle it. The best I can do is be there for my friends, with advice to give when asked for.
Advice should always be honest. Before asking, make sure you're ready to hear it. I don't sugar coat things anymore.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Spontaneity
What is life without excitement? Without spontaneity? Without surprises? Life is boring. Who wants to live a boring life? Not this girl.
I love when people surprise me. It makes life exciting. No one wants to settle for a boring, daily routine that is never different. Change is good, it's exciting, it's what makes the time we have on Earth worth it. I wish it happened more often, but some people are just too shy. I get it though, I've definitely been there. I can be very shy, but I've gotten much better. I've learned that it can't hurt to be yourself. If people don't like the way you are, they aren't worth the time. Don't get me wrong, I've got nothing against people being shy. Its just that people who are spontaneous are always the most fun to be around. You never know what they are going to do next.
I can't even explain how awesome spontaneous people are. I can't give examples as to what makes them awesome. I don't even know what to say right now. I'm actually at a loss for words. They are just awesome. Simple as that. The fact that they are unpredictable is what makes being around them so exciting. They may ask the most random things, but what makes the night so enjoyable is just saying yes to it. "Want to lay down in the middle of the street?" YES. "Want to attempt to waltz in the middle of a store?" SURE! "Want to drive to the beach right now and spend the entire day there?" OF COURSE.
Life just got 10x more exciting because it became spontaneous.
The same old thing gets boring. Spice things up and do something out of the ordinary.
I love when people surprise me. It makes life exciting. No one wants to settle for a boring, daily routine that is never different. Change is good, it's exciting, it's what makes the time we have on Earth worth it. I wish it happened more often, but some people are just too shy. I get it though, I've definitely been there. I can be very shy, but I've gotten much better. I've learned that it can't hurt to be yourself. If people don't like the way you are, they aren't worth the time. Don't get me wrong, I've got nothing against people being shy. Its just that people who are spontaneous are always the most fun to be around. You never know what they are going to do next.
I can't even explain how awesome spontaneous people are. I can't give examples as to what makes them awesome. I don't even know what to say right now. I'm actually at a loss for words. They are just awesome. Simple as that. The fact that they are unpredictable is what makes being around them so exciting. They may ask the most random things, but what makes the night so enjoyable is just saying yes to it. "Want to lay down in the middle of the street?" YES. "Want to attempt to waltz in the middle of a store?" SURE! "Want to drive to the beach right now and spend the entire day there?" OF COURSE.
Life just got 10x more exciting because it became spontaneous.
The same old thing gets boring. Spice things up and do something out of the ordinary.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
I Don't Care
I honestly don't care. I don't care what you think of me, I don't care what you say about me, I don't care what you subtweet about me. It doesn't matter, because I don't let it affect me. Which is the problem with about 99% of the high school population. Everyone is too worried about other's opinions.
Be yourself. Two simple words put together to form a simple statement. But it's not that simple, is it? Not many people are willing to be their complete selves because they are afraid of what others will think of them. I'm glad to say that I'm not one of them. The way I act is exactly the way I am. I may be shy at first, but once I get to know you, I break out of my shell and I become myself. Why can't more people feel comfortable doing that?
I don't dress like everyone else just to fit in. I don't talk like everyone else just to fit in. I don't party like everyone else just to fit in. I don't do anything for anyone but me. And if you don't like that, then that really sucks for you. I don't care though. It is what it is.
There isn't much point to this, because honestly, I don't care. (In case you haven't already figured that out)
I guess what I'm trying to say is that people should stop worrying about everyone else and focus on themselves. No one can be happy when constantly worrying about what others think. The only way to be truly happy is to be satisfied with yourself. And the easiest way to do that?! Not caring about what others think of you. Changing the way you are for others can make you fake and turn you into someone you're not. The second you let what someone says about you affect you, you're letting them control you. Don't give them the power to shape who you are. The reason you were given that power in the first place is because you are the only one who can use it to the full potential.
Subtweets are a whole different topic, yet closely related. I don't understand why people are so offended with them. All a subtweet does is let you know that 1) you're being talked about and 2) the person tweeting doesn't have the guts to say it to your face. If all you do is subtweet, you're pathetic. I get the occasional subtweet every once in a while if it's directed towards a group, rather than just an individual, but all the time? Come on now. That's not what twitter is for, and I'd rather not have to weed through constant bitching every time I reload twitter. (Which is often. I have a bit of a problem, but I'm okay with it.)
Genius idea! How about we act like the mature kids we SHOULD be and talk to each other in person rather than subtweeting about it. I think it would solve a lot more problems and maybe, just maybe, I won't be forced to unfollow anyone. But if subtweeting is your thing, if it's what gets the blood flowing, then whatever. I don't care. It was just a thought.
Subtweet, gossip, complain. Do whatever you want. Bottom line: it's still about me, and I still don't care.
"Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession"
Be yourself. Two simple words put together to form a simple statement. But it's not that simple, is it? Not many people are willing to be their complete selves because they are afraid of what others will think of them. I'm glad to say that I'm not one of them. The way I act is exactly the way I am. I may be shy at first, but once I get to know you, I break out of my shell and I become myself. Why can't more people feel comfortable doing that?
I don't dress like everyone else just to fit in. I don't talk like everyone else just to fit in. I don't party like everyone else just to fit in. I don't do anything for anyone but me. And if you don't like that, then that really sucks for you. I don't care though. It is what it is.
There isn't much point to this, because honestly, I don't care. (In case you haven't already figured that out)
I guess what I'm trying to say is that people should stop worrying about everyone else and focus on themselves. No one can be happy when constantly worrying about what others think. The only way to be truly happy is to be satisfied with yourself. And the easiest way to do that?! Not caring about what others think of you. Changing the way you are for others can make you fake and turn you into someone you're not. The second you let what someone says about you affect you, you're letting them control you. Don't give them the power to shape who you are. The reason you were given that power in the first place is because you are the only one who can use it to the full potential.
Subtweets are a whole different topic, yet closely related. I don't understand why people are so offended with them. All a subtweet does is let you know that 1) you're being talked about and 2) the person tweeting doesn't have the guts to say it to your face. If all you do is subtweet, you're pathetic. I get the occasional subtweet every once in a while if it's directed towards a group, rather than just an individual, but all the time? Come on now. That's not what twitter is for, and I'd rather not have to weed through constant bitching every time I reload twitter. (Which is often. I have a bit of a problem, but I'm okay with it.)
Genius idea! How about we act like the mature kids we SHOULD be and talk to each other in person rather than subtweeting about it. I think it would solve a lot more problems and maybe, just maybe, I won't be forced to unfollow anyone. But if subtweeting is your thing, if it's what gets the blood flowing, then whatever. I don't care. It was just a thought.
Subtweet, gossip, complain. Do whatever you want. Bottom line: it's still about me, and I still don't care.
"Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession"
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Girls?
I feel that, because I'm a girl, it is acceptable for me to rant about how annoying the female sex is. But just before I start this, I'm not denying that I do any of this. I'm sure I have in the past, or maybe I still do. It's just annoying things I notice.
First off, when girls make degrading jokes about themselves, it just makes me angry. Like, does anyone realize how long it took for women to even have the right to vote in this country? Women in the past worked so hard to have the rights that women today have, but we don't realize how much we take it for granite. Second, why on Earth would anyone degrade their own sex!? That is just stupid right there. I actually find it offensive when guys tell girls to "make them a sandwich". No. You make your own damn sandwich, and while your at it, make one for me! Women aren't there just to cook and clean, despite 95% of guy's beliefs. Women can do anything men can do, yet the society we live in doesn't always allow that, which just makes me so frustrated. Our society is so sexist, and the only ones with the power to change it would rather joke about it and make degrading jokes. If it keeps up like this, I bet women will have less rights in the future than they do now. It's just irritating.
Next, when girls, mainly high school girls, move from one guy to the next to the next, it actually makes me laugh. Some girls are so dependent on someone else to make them happy, they don't even realize what they are doing. I have come to the conclusion that we are born to be individual, but finding a "significant other" is just an added bonus. They aren't needed, but they are nice to have. When I see girls with one guy one weekend, and a completely different guy the next, I wonder to myself what they are thinking, or what they are doing. No judgement though, if that's what floats their boat, then by all means. It's just not my cup of tea.
Oh goodness, don't even get me started on some of the outfits I see in the halls of Sunset. It makes me embarrassed to even attend the school. We are in a high school, not a strip club. I don't even want, or need, to go into it any more than that.
Then, of course, you can't talk about girls without talking about the stupid mind games we play. I, personally, don't like to participate in these, because it's never fun. Someone always ends up hurt. But other girls, for some reason, think its funny. (Again, whatever floats their boat) Who even came up with these stupid rules anyway? Like if a guy you like texts you, you're not allowed to reply until 5 minutes later, after your message is approved by your closest friends. Who does that?! Why can't girls just be straight up? There are so many relationship issues, and who wants to take a guess at what causes them? I can tell you. It's mind games girls play. I hate it. I just absolutely hate it.
Guys, don't think you're the only ones getting screwed over with these mind games though.
Sometimes, I just want to shake some girls and scream at them until they understand why I get so annoyed with them all. But I can't do that, because that would be considered rude.
Monday, October 17, 2011
Nothing New
I haven't posted anything in a while because, for once, I had nothing to complain about in my life. But seeing as homecoming was on Saturday, the venting beings.
I'll keep this post to one topic: high school relationships.
Seeing as it's fall, it is starting to get cold out, and everyone is ready to snuggle up, all these relationships start popping up right, left, and center. The funniest thing about it though, they don't last past the winter months. Apparently, no one wants to cuddle once the sun starts shining. Typical. Mood swinging teenagers.
Guys say they don't understand girls. Girls say they don't get guys. Its clearly a mutual problem, so why is it not solved yet? Humans are a complex species by nature, but what is so complicated about being honest? If everyone was honest in how they felt and what they wanted out of something, there wouldn't be these mind games being played. Yeah, I'll admit it. Girls can be crazy. We over-analyze things, we create problems, we don't really believe we can have a "fairy tale ending" even though it's all we dream about. We're selfish and spiteful. We're complicated. But that doesn't mean guys are so easy themselves. Don't be too quick to judge.
What really irritates me with high school relationships is not the fact that they never last, but the fact that when they are over, there is awkwardness or drama created around the entire thing. Sure, you dated for 3 months, but there is no need to make a situation awkward when you two are in the same class. Okay, your relationship ended after 6 months, but don't start rumors about how awful of a person they are because they broke up with you. Maybe you need to consider the fact that you were part of the reason the relationship didn't work out. Everything in life is a two way street, so don't blame everything on everyone else. It's not fair to anyone, whether they were directly involved or not.
Relationships are always a complicated matter. The best way to deal with it is to be honest. Funny, you'd think people would understand that. But based on the drama I hear about some relationships, it's clear that some people never got that message.
I'll keep this post to one topic: high school relationships.
Seeing as it's fall, it is starting to get cold out, and everyone is ready to snuggle up, all these relationships start popping up right, left, and center. The funniest thing about it though, they don't last past the winter months. Apparently, no one wants to cuddle once the sun starts shining. Typical. Mood swinging teenagers.
Guys say they don't understand girls. Girls say they don't get guys. Its clearly a mutual problem, so why is it not solved yet? Humans are a complex species by nature, but what is so complicated about being honest? If everyone was honest in how they felt and what they wanted out of something, there wouldn't be these mind games being played. Yeah, I'll admit it. Girls can be crazy. We over-analyze things, we create problems, we don't really believe we can have a "fairy tale ending" even though it's all we dream about. We're selfish and spiteful. We're complicated. But that doesn't mean guys are so easy themselves. Don't be too quick to judge.
What really irritates me with high school relationships is not the fact that they never last, but the fact that when they are over, there is awkwardness or drama created around the entire thing. Sure, you dated for 3 months, but there is no need to make a situation awkward when you two are in the same class. Okay, your relationship ended after 6 months, but don't start rumors about how awful of a person they are because they broke up with you. Maybe you need to consider the fact that you were part of the reason the relationship didn't work out. Everything in life is a two way street, so don't blame everything on everyone else. It's not fair to anyone, whether they were directly involved or not.
Relationships are always a complicated matter. The best way to deal with it is to be honest. Funny, you'd think people would understand that. But based on the drama I hear about some relationships, it's clear that some people never got that message.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Negativity Killed the Cat
I am just in such a horrible mood right now. It is probably not the best idea to be blogging, but I don't know what else to do.
Its a proven fact that honest and optimistic people live longer lives, and today, I've decreased my lifespan by about 5 years. Yes, thats how negative I am today. I just have a lot on my plate and not enough time to sort through it all. I need a mental health day, that way, I can just be with my thoughts and figure out what it is that I'm doing with my life.
It's hard to know who to trust these days. Sure, you know you've always got your best friends, but when you need a friend to talk to, how do you know they are going to keep it between the two of you? What makes everything especially difficult is the Internet and phones. I never feel like what I say is kept private, but I suppose shame on me for thinking it could be if it goes on the Internet. It goes beyond that though, because sometimes, I will have a conversation in person with someone, but later hear about how they told people what we said. (If that makes any sense...) No one can keep a secret anymore, and that is just frustrating. I'm no different though, and I'm not trying to make myself sound perfect. I'm far from, and I'm proud to own up to it. I just wish that secrets could be kept. But sometimes, secrets must be spread because no one can keep a good secret to themselves.
I promise to myself and to you that I will try my hardest to be more optimistic and honest. My life will be easier, though some of the honesty may make it harder at times. I know it will be for the best, and I plan to do it. But just know, if you need a secret to be kept, I keep them as locked as a bank's vault.
Its a proven fact that honest and optimistic people live longer lives, and today, I've decreased my lifespan by about 5 years. Yes, thats how negative I am today. I just have a lot on my plate and not enough time to sort through it all. I need a mental health day, that way, I can just be with my thoughts and figure out what it is that I'm doing with my life.
It's hard to know who to trust these days. Sure, you know you've always got your best friends, but when you need a friend to talk to, how do you know they are going to keep it between the two of you? What makes everything especially difficult is the Internet and phones. I never feel like what I say is kept private, but I suppose shame on me for thinking it could be if it goes on the Internet. It goes beyond that though, because sometimes, I will have a conversation in person with someone, but later hear about how they told people what we said. (If that makes any sense...) No one can keep a secret anymore, and that is just frustrating. I'm no different though, and I'm not trying to make myself sound perfect. I'm far from, and I'm proud to own up to it. I just wish that secrets could be kept. But sometimes, secrets must be spread because no one can keep a good secret to themselves.
I promise to myself and to you that I will try my hardest to be more optimistic and honest. My life will be easier, though some of the honesty may make it harder at times. I know it will be for the best, and I plan to do it. But just know, if you need a secret to be kept, I keep them as locked as a bank's vault.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Hello High School
People these days have absolutely no idea how they are screwing themselves over. Sure, I guess it sounds cool to be popular, but why waste four years climbing to the top of the social ladder when you just have to start over once college starts? Why wouldn't you use these precious four years discovering who you truly want to be and what you want to do? That way, you just continue where you left off once you get to college, rather than starting over.
Social climbing is fake anyway. You have to act like someone you aren't in order to move up the rungs of high school popularity. Why even bother? I would much rather be considered a loser and be myself. At least I know I will sleep peacefully for the rest of my life. I don't bother coating myself in plastic just to "fit in". If I don't fit in with the people I'm around, I shouldn't be around them. I know who my friends are and I know that they love me for the way that I am, and they fact that I don't care if I'm different, or considered "unpopular". I'm me, so take it or leave it.
On a related topic, lets chat for a bit about "mean girls". (Or sometimes, "mean guys") I don't understand why people think its okay to be rude to one another. Where does it get you in life? NOWHERE! So just stop. The funny part about mean girls is that they are so horribly rude to innocent people to make themselves feel better, but when they get called out for it, they act like sweet, innocent angels. Hello, we see through you!
Mean girls are insecure about themselves so they have to put others down. But sometimes, as much as it pains you, you just have to let them run their mouth. People these days find confidence in running their mouth over the Internet, but would never have the guts to do it in person. When you're the recipient of this "blast" (which is the stupidest phrase ever), just stick it out and know that you are stronger than the mean girl because you ignore it. All they want is to irritate you to the point that you snap, and when you do, they will twist the story to make you look bad and them look like the angel. The more you ignore it, the less they will run their mouth. Without a reaction from you, they get bored.
Hating on people is just plain stupid. I mean, didn't anyone else learn the rule "treat others how you want to be treated"? They taught that to us in KINDERGARTEN. You would think that by high school people would have figured out what it meant. I'm ashamed to say that some people still don't understand it, and unfortunately, they probably never will.
The important thing to remember is that who you are is not defined by what you wear, how popular you are, or how rude you can be, but how you act. If you act like a bitch, people think you're a bitch. And they are probably right.
Stay strong and be yourself, and no one can break you down.
Social climbing is fake anyway. You have to act like someone you aren't in order to move up the rungs of high school popularity. Why even bother? I would much rather be considered a loser and be myself. At least I know I will sleep peacefully for the rest of my life. I don't bother coating myself in plastic just to "fit in". If I don't fit in with the people I'm around, I shouldn't be around them. I know who my friends are and I know that they love me for the way that I am, and they fact that I don't care if I'm different, or considered "unpopular". I'm me, so take it or leave it.
On a related topic, lets chat for a bit about "mean girls". (Or sometimes, "mean guys") I don't understand why people think its okay to be rude to one another. Where does it get you in life? NOWHERE! So just stop. The funny part about mean girls is that they are so horribly rude to innocent people to make themselves feel better, but when they get called out for it, they act like sweet, innocent angels. Hello, we see through you!
Mean girls are insecure about themselves so they have to put others down. But sometimes, as much as it pains you, you just have to let them run their mouth. People these days find confidence in running their mouth over the Internet, but would never have the guts to do it in person. When you're the recipient of this "blast" (which is the stupidest phrase ever), just stick it out and know that you are stronger than the mean girl because you ignore it. All they want is to irritate you to the point that you snap, and when you do, they will twist the story to make you look bad and them look like the angel. The more you ignore it, the less they will run their mouth. Without a reaction from you, they get bored.
Hating on people is just plain stupid. I mean, didn't anyone else learn the rule "treat others how you want to be treated"? They taught that to us in KINDERGARTEN. You would think that by high school people would have figured out what it meant. I'm ashamed to say that some people still don't understand it, and unfortunately, they probably never will.
The important thing to remember is that who you are is not defined by what you wear, how popular you are, or how rude you can be, but how you act. If you act like a bitch, people think you're a bitch. And they are probably right.
Stay strong and be yourself, and no one can break you down.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Always and Forever
There are very few things that are still considered "unconditional" in today's society. Love being the major one. Though some consider love to be the most important thing in life, I disagree. I believe that friendship is more important than love. Love can't be happily found without friendship. I cherish my friends, but I don't tell them that enough.
Friendship is unconditional. It is absolute. It does not change based on moods, feelings, actions, or distance. True friends are always there for one another, through thick and thin. Friends may have their disagreements from time to time, but that's normal. What defines a friendship is not how long you can stand one another, but how long you can support one another. I would do anything for my friends. I would move Heaven and Earth to make sure they live a good life. Nothing is more heart breaking than seeing someone you truly care about beaten down and hurt. Even if my friends don't always have my back, it is a guarantee that I will always have theirs.
I've been through rough times, I've been beaten down, I've had days where I didn't want to do anything because I was so upset. But it gets better. It always gets better. If I didn't have my friends there to support me through those hard times, there's not telling the kind of person I would be today. So each day, I thank my friends for their support. Though I may not always voice these thanks, I'm constantly giving them.
Friends are there to make your life enjoyable. My friends know I'm always open to listen and I will always have their back. I may not sugarcoat things to make them feel better, and though they think the truth hurts, it's a lot easier to deal with than the lies that come out later down the road. Everything I do for my friends is done because I care for them. They deserve the best, and I give them the best I can.
So surround yourself with good people. People you will always care for and people who will always care for you. Friendship is one of the most important things to have in life because without it, you're alone and vulnerable.
Friendship is unconditional. It is absolute. It does not change based on moods, feelings, actions, or distance. True friends are always there for one another, through thick and thin. Friends may have their disagreements from time to time, but that's normal. What defines a friendship is not how long you can stand one another, but how long you can support one another. I would do anything for my friends. I would move Heaven and Earth to make sure they live a good life. Nothing is more heart breaking than seeing someone you truly care about beaten down and hurt. Even if my friends don't always have my back, it is a guarantee that I will always have theirs.
I've been through rough times, I've been beaten down, I've had days where I didn't want to do anything because I was so upset. But it gets better. It always gets better. If I didn't have my friends there to support me through those hard times, there's not telling the kind of person I would be today. So each day, I thank my friends for their support. Though I may not always voice these thanks, I'm constantly giving them.
Friends are there to make your life enjoyable. My friends know I'm always open to listen and I will always have their back. I may not sugarcoat things to make them feel better, and though they think the truth hurts, it's a lot easier to deal with than the lies that come out later down the road. Everything I do for my friends is done because I care for them. They deserve the best, and I give them the best I can.
So surround yourself with good people. People you will always care for and people who will always care for you. Friendship is one of the most important things to have in life because without it, you're alone and vulnerable.
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