It's times like these where I wish my life was already planned out. I wish I knew what classes to take, what college to go to, what to study, who to marry, where to live. It would be so much easier that way. But nothing in life is easy. That's the thing. We can't have everything, which is why we have to choose. And the choices we make determine the rest of our lives.
I've been so stressed out lately, for a lot of reasons. One being college. I don't know what I want to do. Sure, I've got a few ideas, but I'm skeptical about them. I have no idea where to go, and my choices aren't exactly limited. There are too many options, and I'm stressing out. Plus, I don't know what I want to study, and I'm afraid that I wont like what I initially choose. I know a major can always be changed, but what if I don't know what to change it to? What if I get halfway through college and realize I don't want to do what it is I'm majoring in for the rest of my life? What happens if I run out of back up plans and end up stalled? Where does my life go from there? If I already knew what I was doing, and knew I was happy with it, it would be so easy. But that is just impossible.
I'm seventeen years old, and lost. I don't know what I want in life. I don't even know what I want for a snack. I'm clueless. And I've got absolutely no idea where to begin this hunt for what to do. My thoughts are all scrambled and I don't know how to unscramble them.
All I know is I'm hungry, and I'm confused. Why can't I know all the answers? Why can't I know how my life is going to turn out? Why can't life be easier? We are faced with challenges daily, and the way we respond to those challenges determine who we are in life. I know a bunch of "what if" questions is getting me nowhere, but what's the harm in asking?
I just want to know what it is that I want. Is that too much to ask?
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