What is Life

I took the SAT's today for the first time, and it was so stressful. Thinking about college in general is stressful. Where to go, what to major in, who to room with. Sometimes, it's just too much. I'm only 17 years old, I'm not supposed to know what I'm doing this weekend. How does the world expect me to know what I want to do for the rest of my life? Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for the chance to go to college and to receive a higher education, but at times, I just can't handle it.

I've never really realized how important it is to continually have good grades. There is never a chance to have a break. Colleges look at not only grades from the previous year, but cumulative GPAs. One little lazy semester can change everything and as a result, the big beautiful acceptance letter from the college of your dreams may never come. Sure, sometimes they understand if you've had serious personal issues, but they can't make exceptions for everybody. If they did, we wouldn't have to suffer through 20 page long applications.
Another thing that stresses me out is the application in general. I can't stand when people ask me to tell them about myself, the good things about me and the bad things about me. I don't like it. I don't ever know what to say, and when I say the good things, I feel as if I'm bragging and sounding cocky. When I say the bad things, it makes me look like I shouldn't get to go to the college. Why can't they just take a guess for themselves? I mean, honestly, when you ask what is good about someone, they will all probably say "I'm a hard worker, I'm a fast learner, I like to focus on my goals". It will all sound the same, so why not make an admissions essay be at least enjoyable?

My mind is so boggled right now, I've had complete over-stimulation today. And it's only 3:30. SAT's weren't  as difficult as I expected, which I'm glad of, but still, it took four hours. FOUR!! So I'm keeping it short and sweet today, because I've got a serious headache. Too much work. Too stressed out. This is a time when I SERIOUSLY need that remote from the movie Click.